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birds come down from skies so blue
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05 December 2009 @ 03:34 pm
i had cold noodles twice this week.
01 December 2009 @ 01:26 pm
black sesame ice-cream
watermelon sorbet
im going to spend my entire december break:
- baking
- practising the guitar
- playing video games
- lounging in a bookstore, im a real nerd at heart
- in quiet solitude
- catching up with people i never get to see
anyway, i need some book recommendations! i read anything but im especially drawn to contemporary fiction. i plan to read "a brief history of time" next.
30 November 2009 @ 12:43 am
25 November 2009 @ 08:06 pm
instant shoyu ramen consumed at 3 am
i think ive successfully (borne of my brother's sheer ingenuity) taken the term 'instant noodles' to a whole new level. this is how it should be done, in under 3 minutes: dump noodles into a large bowl; empty contents of sachet; add in tepid water (heck, even tap water will suffice); finally, send it to the microwave for 2.5-3 mins while flipping the noodles every 45 seconds or so.
in other news, ive been listening to lou reed the entire day & havent exactly managed to plough through my articles in preparation for my exam which begins in roughly ... 13 hours.
23 November 2009 @ 08:27 pm
studying is not the agonizing part about exams, its the waiting.
it's the waiting for emancipation that's tiring, it's the waiting for december & the promise of a better month.
i hope everyone had a good weekend. mine was spent pouring unproductively over numbers and figures while listening to french music (ie. see above) on replay. one more week till im done with studying. i cannot wait.
15 November 2009 @ 11:32 pm
i baked a walnut cake today.
& added chocolate chips in replacement of raisins.
the japanese & koreans seriously have the cutest ice-creams. $2.50 for a fish ice-cream.
and it had red bean & vanilla filling.
things that make me happy:
baking, british accents, good music & good company, playing the guitar badly, new shoes
things i need to work on:
baking, maintaining a clean living environment ie. not sleeping on the floor because of a cluttered bed (mind you, my bed's king-sized), draw up a study plan & stick to it
things i need to buy:
denim everything -- jacket, light-washed jeans (or rather, light grey, charcoal grey, acid grey, black jeans to welcome the new school term), black flats, black dresses, ipod case, everything in studs and sequins.
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the year is coming to a close. in all honesty, this is possibly by far, the shittiest year in my 19 years of living. i was depressed from february to july. utterly depressed. august saw me getting better, september saw me relapsing. october was fine. then november ... the air just makes me sad. if i was brave enough, id buy a ticket to somewhere far, far, far away and never return. the truth is, ive got nothing to lose, & nothing's holding me back.
Current Music: albert hammond, jr - feed me jack or how i learned to stop worrying & love peter
01 November 2009 @ 11:30 pm
i typed why into my google search bar and this showed up! ridiculously funny, i cant pick a favourite. im going to try more variations.
i've been listening to the entire eel's album on repeat, but for some reason i really like this song best.
& geez, i really hate how insecure i can be sometimes. im always unduly worried.
Current Music: eels - my timing is off
28 October 2009 @ 12:18 am
in all randomness:
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- i uploaded up! into my ipod, can't wait to watch it on board lonely bus rides.
- i foresee i will spend my entire weekend holed up in school or hunched over books (deadlines are looming!)
- i've made a resolution not to hand up anymore half-assed assignments/fall behind lectures; it feels shitty getting a mediocre grade dished back at you, knowing you could have done so much better, ouch?
25 October 2009 @ 04:19 pm
i slept my entire weekend away. in my defence, school has been getting busier, either that or im having a really difficult time managing my time properly. i suspect it's more of the latter. last tuesday i went to bed at 7 am upon completing a belated essay that was given a week in advance but alas, procrastination got the better of me. thursday saw me sleeping at 3.30 am (thereupon, waking at 7) in a valiant attempt to save my laptop which decided to die on me during project month (which stretches till mid-november). in essence, i sleep very little & drink copious amounts of coffee (which is strange, because im practically immune to the effects of coffee). i work best when im under immense pressure to complete something on time.
since entering university:
1. my bank balance has been decreasing exponentially. no surprise there, instant gratification (ie. good food, nice clothes) has always been my coping mechanism, this bad habit is also expedited by ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
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2. ive met a bunch of diverse friends: the bulk of which are either disgustingly ill-mannered or extremely nice; unfortunately, i always seem to get stuck with the former but that's okay, their lack of social aptitude is quite amusing, really. also interesting to note is that ive met a couple of people i can connect well with. i hope they would turn out to be the type who i can share comfortable silence with.
3. my mood has become insanely erratic like a pendulum swinging to and from both ends of the spectrum. see also: bipolar; some days i feel inexplicably depressed and on others, i feel like i can conquer anything and everything.
that is all.
i still think my life is too underwhelming as of now (despite the endless stream of projects); i need some excitement, some dramatic shift, something to blow me away, so to speak.
Current Music: the apples in stereo - the sun is out
21 October 2009 @ 05:57 am
i want to blend into obscurity and fade away.
knowing the discrepancies between who i am and who i want to be
are too huge to be reconciled,
i want to be forgotten.
i want to wipe the slate clean.
knowing the discrepancies between who i am and who i want to be
are too huge to be reconciled,
i want to be forgotten.
i want to wipe the slate clean.
22 August 2009 @ 10:31 am
i want to give all i have till there's nothing left of me.
i want to fight so hard and not worry how it feels to die trying.
i want to fight so hard and not worry how it feels to die trying.
30 July 2009 @ 03:04 pm
12 May 2009 @ 04:44 pm
i like to go to the beach when i have a lot of things on my mind.
when night decends, just staring at the lights illuminating across the waters
is enough to make me wish i was someone else, some place else.
Current Music: the libertines - time for heroes
01 April 2009 @ 04:30 pm
we love to think our threshold for tolerance is higher than everyone elses. that we're the best. that whatever we receive --- or ought to (in good time) --- is our god-given right. we also believe that we can outrun everyone in race. hold our breath the longest underwater. outshine and outlast. that it is in our capacity to win. it's not self-deception, it's the only defence mechanism we have: so we tell ourselves, we are the fucking best, knowing very well that there can only be one best. one winner. one glory. winner takes all.
so, we never anticipate failure until life throws you a curve ball, right smack in your face.
still, we dont acknowledge failure. we call it a gross oversight on nature's part. that way, we never have to lose.
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so, we never anticipate failure until life throws you a curve ball, right smack in your face.
still, we dont acknowledge failure. we call it a gross oversight on nature's part. that way, we never have to lose.
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also, a melancholic song for all, my contribution:
broken social scene - bruised ghosts
even heaven gets rough
ghosts were meant for bleeding
Current Music: metric - help im alive